Of Patience

  I feel terrible. I feel like I have lost one of my few assets at work, which is my patience with older people. I have two older trainees in my current class, my first class after a few months of being stagnant. They failed to meet the targets of their previous program, and now they have been transferred to my program. They had their mini-assessment earlier, where they will need to apply what they learned during our discussions, practices and observations. It’s a bit like a “show me what you’ve learned” type of thing. Take note that we are handling back-office support. We take care of requests in the back-end with no real interaction with anyone. 

 They failed miserably. I got a bit frustrated while they were doing the mini-assessment. One, because they were not performing as expected; and two, because I felt like I failed them too. I want to blame it to the recent string of holidays, because they had a 5-day rest and maybe they forgot their tasks. It’s understandable, for sure, since they have just been attending training for a week. But still, I was surprised that I even felt frustrated. I have not felt or seen myself run out of patience, until last night. I’m hoping it’s just one of those days. 

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 On a not-so-related note, I have just started a new workout program, called the German Volume Training. I liked this program because it’s a short program, one I can finish in an hour, and according to what I’ve read, I can get a lot of results if I follow it to a T. It’s more of a challenge now, though. My wife’s about to give birth, but since the program is fast paced, I will squeeze it in our schedule. I also need patience for this, and I hope I don’t run out of it again like last night. 

 I’m thinking of recording my progress using pictures, weight tracks, and all that jazz. I don’t want to post anything online until I notice any huge changes. I’ve tried keeping track of my “progress” before, and I ended up disappointed. Let’s wait and see.

Life Strikes Again

   The holidays-weekend combination has somewhat tickled my interest in everything again. I wanted to go back to trying to write, trying to draw, and hitting the weights. Everything was planned in advance. Since almost all businesses, including the gym, will be closed during the Holy Week, I will wait it out and start Easter Sunday.

  Easter morning comes, and I wake up early. With no alarms, even. I log on to the internet, and look for a program that is feasible, and not something that will kill me. I found the German Volume Training and liked it because it looked something I will be able to do even after my usual 11+ hours in the office without trying to wake up the night after feeling like sh*t. I jotted down everything I needed, prepared my gym stuff, ate a hearty breakfast and prepared for a good work out. I hummed Roy Jones Jr.’s song in my head (Can’t be Touched).

  A few minutes after, I find out that the gym was still closed. 

  What a way to start my “cycle“.   

  Come to think of it, at least I was able to use it for this post. Damn it, life! Stop being an ass!

Start the Chain

I am currently in a rut. I find myself doing the same things over and over and over again. I sleep, go to work, go back home, and sleep. Sometimes, I find myself writing a bit (just like, obviously, this post) but I don’t find my posts as engaging, interesting or even remotely read-able. i just feel like I have to type/write something so my blog will not go to the internet-waste land.

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I have not been able to do what I wanted to do the past months. I maybe using my wife’s pregnancy as an excuse again. I have to start getting active, just like before. I have to start the cycle again.

I don’t know if I can do it, but I am planning on analyzing my daily schedule and see where I will be able to fit activities aside from eating/sleeping/working. This may mean I will not get my usual 8 hours of sleep, or maybe spending a little more (for example: a Gold’s Gym membership, which is a literally just a few steps away from the office. That way, I will not have an excuse to not to go to the gym).

I know I promised to write at least once per day, but I haven’t followed through. I’ll try harder this time, and make sure it works out. I also read a few things about discipline; that is, having a routine helps. This will be a challenge for me, as my work schedule is erratic, but I am hoping I’ll figure this out.

My wife is due to give birth anytime soon, and I don’t want to be a bad example for my first born. I want him to see that I am doing my best to have a good work-life balance. But I will have to start now, start the cycle and not break it again.